Friday, September 19, 2008

Yup, I am Old & Uncool

Me at my coolest. Age three. All kids are cool.
Age 19, and yes that is a famous Brian cut.

Suzanna  (Sitting Pretty Studio) & I. Age 21. Yes I am bald here. Me and my hair have always had a love hate relationship. I used to have dreads too.

Now, age 31.

It has hit me lately, that I am not cool anymore, and I am old. How could this happen? When did I cross over from cool art chic to soggy baggy mom? Why is it I can't find clothes that fit, and I haven't had a "cute" haircut, well since Brian last cut my hair. Brian is not only like a big brother too me, but my hair dresser as well. He used to give me the cutest haircuts. He started cutting my hair when I was 13 & I was hooked. The only time he didn't cut my hair, was when I lived out of state. I could totally use a Brian hair cut. However even a hair cut wouldn't rescue me from my uncool status. I think I realized I was no longer cool and maybe hitting old lady hood when I was listening to the radio and a song I used to like for its brash and abrasive beat and lyrics actually sounded a wee bit too offensive to listen to with my kids in the car. Really? Me? The girl who used to blair loud progressive and underground music so everyone can hear how ahead of the crowd and "cool" I am. Nope not anymore. I have the soundtrack to Curious George on heavy rotation in the car. Gone are the days of Fugazi and Sonic Youth, NIN and Primus blasting from my stereo. My old school music just makes the kids upset and anxious, things I try to avoid. Still how did all this happen. I don't feel any older. I still feel young and I do try to keep up with all the new bands and singers. Music is after art my favorite thing. And how did I go from wearing cutting edge fashion, always before it was cool, to wearing black shirts from Target and capris alllllll theeeee timeeeeeee? If I walked out of the house in thigh highs, combat boots and a kilt with a vintage shirt these days I would probably look, well, like I was soooo 90's. I still love fashion. I actually have very good taste in clothes. Just can't afford the clothes I like. I guess I figure diapers and food in the fridge are a little more important than a new pair of Lucky Jeans (I love Lucky clothes) I think what officially made me fell old, and uncool is the fact that old men compliment me now. Yup. Used to be cute young things. Now it's like the grey haired guy pushing a walker. How did this happen?Aside from realizing all my uncoolness and that, sniff sniff, yes I am getting older,  I do want to say this 

a:: I have never felt more comfortable with who I am. (strange since I am complaining about being uncool & old)

b:: I love being married and having my husband tell me how beautiful I am (way better than any hottie saying it) because I know he means it.

c:: Although I wasn't the best mom with Sloan when she was little, I try everyday to love these girls more than life itself. I also enjoy being a mom and watching my girls grow and learn. Maybe I can help them grow into good productive citizens. Hey maybe I can even give them a few hints on how to be cool. Although by the time they are worried about things like that I will be hopelessly square.

and last but not least.......

d:: I fully realize that one day I will look back on me at 31 and think, Gosh I was sooooooo young & cool back then, why am I not cool now?


KKJD1 said...

Love all the then and now pics, too cute. Love all the new fall art you've done the mouse is my fav I think, although I like them all.
I hope you have a great weekend. Blessings, Karen

zana said...

okay Summer, you have opened a can of worms...I will be sifting through my old photes now...I've got more of us on the beach I think...and some at Ringling...what was the deal with our shaved heads? I remember you walking into the apartment with your hoodie on and whipping it off and hair! You look awesome in your current pictures!
Love you and am so glad that we have somewhat of a history together!
PS: You look killer in that black/white pic w/your short hair...KILLER!

Artfulife said...

I had shaved it for the second time. I think I shaved it 4 different times. Those pictures of you and Jeff are so much fun. Do you have any of me and you know who? I am calling you to night.

Elissa said...

I used to be cool too, i swear! LOL.... i think you and i would have got on nicely. (maybe we still would! tee-hee) never shaved my head and i think i was a bit more granola than edgy, but i too wore the big pants and i too currently have more jack johnson in my rotation than NIN! right there with you... can't afford the stuff i like when it comes to fashion, so half the time look like a very un-edgy, schleppy college student. UH, but with wrinkles and gray roots and three babes. ha! love your pics though. thanks for sharing. and, for what it's worth, i think you look gorgeous at 31!

mysteryhistorymom said...

Summer- I LOVED seeing the pictures of you! You are one gorgeous gal and so very cool! Take it from me- I will be turning 40!!!! in January and am so not cool. But you know what, my girls like me just the way I am, so I ROCK anyway!:) Lori

michelle said...

I feel you! I am sooo not cool anymore, but I don't know if I ever was. Maybe just in my own head. Now I KNOW I'm not cool. I'm a soccer mom, without the soccer. (sigh) At least I still listen to cool music.

mysteryhistorymom said...

Summer- Thanks for your comments. No, you're not getting too political, but I am afraid that I am, so I changed that part of my post. I put something much sillier! Please do send me the info about Obama, though, as I would like to be informed. Thanks Sweetie!:) Lori

Amy @ Park City Girl said...

Summer! You are so hard on yourself! I get you though. . . I never shaved my head but I was called GI Jane a few times!

Firefly Hill said...

I happen to think that you ARE young and cool and beautiful too!

So there.


Christina Joy said...

Dude (yes, I, also uncool, am saying Dude), you are way cool. And you rocked the shortcuts! I miss those carefree independent days too, and it really hit me a few days ago when I realized I was listening to Elizabeth Mitchell more often than my old favorite Death Cab. Like, old Death Cab. Because, I too, in all the glory and splendor of it, am old. ;)

Dana said...

You'll always be cool in my book!!